A Partner With God

I am now counting down the weeks before our little girl is born. I’ve been thinking a lot about how I can be best prepared both practically speaking and emotionally. I have been working hard to make sure we have everything ready: meals in the freezer, diapers and clothes ready, babysitters for my son arranged, etc. There is a lot to do to get ready for a baby but what I learned from my son is that the most important preparation is emotional and spiritual.

I am a bit of a control freak. I really hate giving up control, especially if it’s because I feel like I can’t do it all on my own. Giving up control to benefit someone else is not too hard for me but being forced to give up control is extremely hard for me. I am a really independent person and I feel that I have no business getting myself into things that I can’t do on my own. I’ve always known this about myself and it’s never really been much of a problem. It’s caused a few stressed out days/weeks but nothing too much beyond that. And then came motherhood.

After I had my son I literally did not sleep for 72 hours. I was so overwhelmed with not only the responsibility of motherhood but the responsibility of having a newborn. If you’ve experienced what it is like to be a first time parent you know that newborns are so fragile, anything could go wrong. And, as a control freak I had to be the one to make sure nothing happened, it was all on me. With each passing day of no the sleep the crazier I got. It literally became too much for me. I couldn’t do it on my own. I couldn’t watch him constantly. This was very hard for me to accept and I didn’t know what to do. My husband gave me a priesthood blessing to help calm my mind and spirit. In the blessing I was reminded that motherhood is not meant to be a solo job. It’s not even meant to be only a partnership between mother and father. Parenthood is meant to be a partnership with God.

After I really internalized that God was in charge and in control I was finally able to sleep and relax. I have to try my best to do my best but more importantly I have to have faith that God will give me strength and that he has a plan for my family. Without God I can’t do it and it is supposed to be that way. Just like my newborn is dependent on me, I am dependant on my Father in Heaven. And just like I love my children with all my heart and will always do what I can to help them, my Father in Heaven loves me and will always help me.

This time around I can feel myself getting nervous about having to give up so much control again but I know I can do it and I know that God will be there for me. I know that He loves me. These are the ways I am trying to prepare for the arrival of our little girl. This is the most important preparation I can do, to prepare to be a partner with God.

3 thoughts on “A Partner With God

  1. Teppo

    That’s a really interesting perspective Lindsey. Do you think that it has influenced the way you look at other situations in life where you have to let go of some control? And good luck for the last weeks of preparation :).

    1. Lindsey Post author

      Absolutely. I don’t think we’re meant to go through life trying to do everything on our own, no matter the situation. This kind of extreme example has helped me to have better faith in Heavenly Father’s plan for me in general and has helped me to rely on Him more.

  2. Robin

    Lindsey, thanks for this reminder. My 4th child will join our family the end of December. There are times when I still can’t believe it. In fact, right now I’m looking at that number 4 and thinking, “Really? We’re really going to do this?” Parenthood can be so intimidating. And as mothers I think we expect more of ourselves than others expect of us. Knowing that our Heavenly Father is literally in our corner makes things seem so much more bearable. I’m still in shock about that “big” number 4, but I know that with Him all things are possible.


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