Tragedy strikes us all at some point.
I experienced a recent tragedy in my life – I had a miscarriage a few weeks ago. We’re all affected differently by these kinds of situations and I want to share how my faith helped me deal with this loss.
I needed to remind myself that sometimes God answers our prayers the way we want Him to and sometimes He doesn’t. In this instance He did not. I had been threatening a miscarriage for a few days but from a medical standpoint, it appeared that everything would be fine. The baby had a heartbeat and was growing but after a few days things turned for the worse and I lost the baby.
At first I did not feel peace. I felt confused and I did not understand why my prayers were not answered the way I thought they should be. I wanted to know why it had to happen and although I was praying for understanding, I was angry and accusing. I didn’t receive the answers I asked for.
After a few days of trying to distract myself from the situation I realized that distraction wasn’t making me feel any better. I knew the only way I could feel peace was to accept the Lord’s will and to ask for peace. It is hard to accept the Lord’s will – it is easier to be angry with God. Only after I accepted that this must be what God wanted for me did I feel the peace I was seeking.
Don’t get me wrong, I am still sad. I have probably cried every day since it happened, but I’m still able to feel peace. I have learned that happiness is not a mood – it is a state of being. I am comforted because I know God loves me and will not abandon me. I found that I can be happy and sad at the same time. I don’t understand why it happened but I do know that it happened for a reason. I know that God is aware of me and that He loves me. I know that happiness is possible even through tragedy because I am experiencing it right now.